Tuesday, December 04, 2007
hello!
longggg time MIA uh?
Haha:)
RED camp was a blast, definitely.
awesome people,
delicious meals provided,
yay.
credits to EVERYONE,
who made this camp a success!
GRINS. :)
Love centurions the most,
HAHAHA.
biased, but thats my tribe mah!
: DD
Clinical attachments.
Eh,
its not all about cleaning backsides k.
HAHAHA,
there's more than that!(:
Of course,
I say here,
also kind of weird lah,
OKAY, disgusting actually.
lets just say,
I've learnt alot,
really alot.
From appreciating ppl,
to living life to the fullest.
Treasure the times you have.
Really,
because you wont know,
when and where you will collapse.
If you are still reading until here,
I thank you for taking your time,
and really,
love you people.
(:
I've joined back a church,
do you say join back?
well, haha,
i dont know.
Contradiction.
Lots i've felt,
but shant say it here.
I just feel,
i'm somehow putting on a mask.
like a clown in a circus.
What's truth, what's a lie,
what's beyond the surface,
I'll ponder about it.
I feel, pretty empty now.
I've tried,
and I'm really, really tired.
my energy has zapped up,
my determination is not there anymore.
People say.
: hey dear, look forward!
there's much more in store for you.
You never know.
Perhaps yes,
I'll never know what lies there.
My past,
our past.
It's smth important,
smth significant to me.
But is it worth any memory to you?
that was really the last straw.
SNAP.
I feel like,
im talking as if,
im a confused patient.
random topics,
random feelings.
thats all for now.
(:
BANGBANG
Sunday, June 10, 2007
Yope peeeps. (:
Hmm.
Paiseh!
1st: com crashed.
2nd: BUSY AH. T.T
Okay.
So here's school!
Talk about life.
Its:
school and work.
School?
1. Chiong projects. ( Note projectS )
2. Practical Test.
3. Common Test. ( KAN CHIONG )
So far, thats school.
And of cos,
I met great people!
1. My P16/T08 love! :)
2. Vball people! ( Esp. Jolene, Wei Xiong )
3. SHIRLEY HAN SHU JUAN!
4. HS friends!
- Jemaine
- Xue qi ( NU-ER )
- Shirley Goh ( GUAI SUN )
5. Wappo! ( Best people i've met! (: )
So life's been,
a rollercoaster ride?
Yep.
Cant say its great,
yet i cant say its bad.
(:
1. HS delegate!
Together with guai sun and gemaine!
Love em! (:
2. NP ambassador!
Through interviews, I've made it.
Why I join this?
A platform for me to reach out to secondary sch students.
A place, I get to LEARN.
I know, i've began to tread on the learning journey. :)
I know it will not be easy,
I know it will be physically, perhaps emotionally draining,
I know i will get busy,
But i too know.
It will be worth it.
So bless me, with faith!
Hang on there shirley, you'll make it there. :)
Hmm.
2 weeks break now!
Ambass camp 14 to 16 june.
Thereafter, it'll be CA!
Pray i'll be fine.
Haha! : D
Exciting!
Okay.
I'll blog more often,
provided my comp is not throwing tantrums.
Lol! :)
I miss them.
Really, I do.
Sigh.
BANGBANG
Sunday, March 11, 2007
you know?
friends make a part of me.
without them,
i wont be here.
i just went online.
happily.
with the intention of asking my friends out.
one of them actually had her bday.
i wanted to celebrate together with them.
u know?
ever since O' level results are released,
i hardly talk to them, let alone seeing them.
i thought,
next week is a vvvv good chance for me.
to me,
both of them play a VERY important role.
i emphasise, very.
i know they can do without me,
i know to them, im insignificant.
i know, yet i dont care.
i know, im just the odd one out.
i know, yet i dont bother.
why?
becos i cant do without them.
even we have alr graduated.
they are still a part of me.
but i guess,
they dont know.
she told me,
she wanted to meet her some other day.
which meant,
she wanted to meet her alone.
i thought of having lunch together,
sitting down and catch up.
but apparently,
it's just on my part,
it's just my wishful thinking.
as i re-read what she typed,
it felt daggers stabbing me,
again and again.
as much as i want to meet up,
i said, "its okay, forget wad i said bah."
those words,
evoked tears that blurred my vision.
i sat in a daze, in front of the com,
before typing this entry out.
so..
i mean nothing to you?
my heart went downhill.
i guess she wont be reading this too.
even if she did,
hope she will understand.
fug world.
fug graduation.
or rather,
im a friend,
not worth to be remembered.
thats what i really think so.
bye.
BANGBANG
Wednesday, February 28, 2007
wow.
been a long time since i've blogged.
welcome back to usual blogging.
MIA for so long,
due to my fantastic com.
hahahah.
apparently,
this com came with MANY viruses.
oh my, oh my.
friends who have talked to me thru msn,
will understand.
hahahah, sorry guys.
i know how irritating it is. :D
now, my com's okay.
my blog is filled with dust alr.
hahah, oh well.
i shall start my first entry in 2007.
well well,
so much happened.
its now 2007. ( im very slow i know, LOL )
and ermm.
got back O level results.
cant say i did well,
but im okay with it.
life's like that.
let's just say,
so long i get into nursing,
im a happy shirley. : D
if not,
boo to life.
hah. (:
yes yes, i got a new job.
at scarlet hotel.
not easy, yep.
but well,
who said it was anyway?
hahahah.
come to think of it,
i wld love to study sometimes.
u know,
its better taking a pen,
than taking a wine opener everyday.
but well,
i learnt alot during this period.
so i guess, i didnt lose?
ever since my sec4 life is over,
ever since i started working,
i found myself very lifeless.
without an aim; direction-less.
i've tried so hard, came so far.
yet, there is nothing i can do.
somehow, everything disappeared.
i nvr met up with my friends at all.
without a trace,
they are gone.
and we, just moved on.
u go that way, i go this way.
a pity, this is just part of life.
and again, there is nothing much i can do.
i find myself,
racing against time.
thats dreadful yeh know.
im dragging myself,
and time is catching up.
perhaps,
i've alr lost to time.
BANGBANG
Friday, December 08, 2006
yoppies!
: D
hahahahs.
duno how yoppies came about.
but it jus means: hellos! * GRINS *
weird uh? LOL. (:
hmms.
so, O's over? xD
rubbish,
its been over ages.
psps, so long den i update.
thanks to the taggers!
mwahs! : D
you all kept my blog alive!
* SMILES *
seems like im in a good mood uh?
not exactly lahs.
but for me now,
its see one day, live one day.
LOL.
hmms.
lets see.
i went to chalet on 28 - 30 nov!
with these wonderful people:
sy, yl, ken, rich, px, yq, jevon, audy, yx, xanney, joanne!
hmms.
to be truthful,
i didnt have much fun during the first day.
shant elaborate much here.
but still, my bottom line is:
i love them very much, really.
(:
but! i had lotsa fun on the last day!
k-box! loves! <3
LOL, it was hilarious.
really!
a pity, some cldnt join us. :and and!
thanks ALOT to 4E2 people!
love you too! : D
esp:
xinni, pris.c, shi hui, gui fang!
love them love them! (:
mwahs!
and the guys there too,
like hong leng, brandon, qi ming, timothy.
oh, and wen yao!
thanks for offering me the grapes!
i was v surprised, and happy.
hahah, yeah. thanks! (:
though he wont see this,
but still, yeah. * grins *
rested for about 2 days?
den off i go~
to where? * looks around *
TO GENTING~
hahahahah!
my first trip overseas!
okay lah, thought v near,
but can out of sing,
im vv happy alr. ((:
this time,
i went with my relatives!
* SMILES *
its been ages since we gathered.
hahahah!
of cos, i had lotsa fun too!
i played those games.
clap for me!
LOL, becos i have height phobia.
but they encouraged me to play.
LOL, in the end,
i play till v shuang liddat.
den my uncle said this:
wah, heng we buy for you the ticket,
u see u play until so happy.
LOL.
my mum went to play with us too.
clycone, the roller coaster!
omg omg.
SO HIGH.
but vv fun! <3
yepps!
den shopped around.
hmms.
oh!
i played a role of nanny too!
darrel cheoh xun kai!
sweet aye the name? xD
the first day ahs,
he DAO me siah. =.=.
i talk to him, he dun wan ans me.
but being the stubborn one,
i refused to give up.
LOL, keep on ' ka-chiao-ing' him.
in the end,
he let me hold his hand!
LOL, even hugged me uh.
so touched! : D
and we got v close. (:
hmms, den relatives said to him:
eh ur BAO MU, shirley bao mu.
LOL.
den he say:
no, she shirley JIE JIE.
LOL!
laugh out loud man.
he likes to say:
oops! oh man!
CUTEEEEEEE!
i took some photos with him,
but the camera aint mine.
heheheh!
if i have the photos,
i'll probably post it up.
* GRINS *
plus!
i waited for the sunrise!
the last day.
hahahah.
i stayed from 3 - 6 dec!
yeah, it was real COLD.
lucky got jacket! : D
this is jus the summary.
hahahah!
want more info,
come look for me!
i'll tell you more. (:
over there,
while playing,
i realised smth.
i miss my friends,
beyond words i can say.
every single one of them,
from sec 1 until present ones.
i suddenly realise,
how much i miss my sec 1 class.
1-06.
yeah, things got ugly for us.
but thats the past alr.
they wont see this,
but really, i miss them.
i miss 4-E3 too!
yeah, also beyond words.
just, i really miss them.
sigh.
i rarely talk to some of people,
whom are v dear to me.
i may be nothing to them,
but they are the world to me!
its okay,
i'll just keep it in my heart,
that i love them always!
im jus a call, sms, msg away.
any day, any time.
hugs! (:
yepps!
xmas is coming!
be happy people!
life's hard.
life's like a rollercoaster ride.
but live it well.
you will be okay.
the sun will shine again, someday.
i'll hold your hand,
till the end of time! (:
i'm working now alr!
hahahah!
cuts on my hand,
aches everywhere,
but i tell myself:
its okay,
hope tmr will be better.
have faith! (:
lovely people!
i hafta get ready for work soon!
tckare and loves! <3
i'll be your comfort,do you hear what i say?take your sweet, sweet time.i'll be here, when you change your mind. take your sweet, sweet time.i'll be here, for you baby, in a time.hahahah! toodles! mwahs! : D
(:
BANGBANG
Saturday, November 18, 2006
back?
(:
just a short post.
left with just one more paper.
my secondary school days,
will be over.
amazing, no?
ups and downs,
laughter and pain.
stories, memories,
how wild they were,
how sweet they were.
(:
im rubbish-ing,
but haha,
thats my forte?
(:
it's over,
but not much joy.
dont know why,
but i'll figure it out.
actually no,
i know why.
yep.
over and done,
wad's left behind?
scars,
tears draining down your cheeks;
water cascading down a waterfall.
normally,
we will like to only remember the happy stuff,
forget the unhappy ones.
however,
its easier said than done, no?
i'll remember,
but i guess you have forgotten.
i'll just have to comfort myself,
by thinking: its okay.
perhaps its living in denial,
but wadever it is,
for now i guess,
thats the only solution.
saying goodbye.
the hardest part.
the fondest part.
because i guess,
you'll finally know,
how much you cherish,
whether its people,
or events.
will blog a full one,
bout these 4 years.
friends?
i'll thank them personally.
(:
given a day to thank,
definitely,
it wldnt be enough.
to type it out here,
it will not be enough too.
so much to say,
so much to feel.
so much to do,
yet so much undone.
in the end,
things are still the same.
where it had gone wrong,
i've got no clue.
perhaps,
i'll just have to let it go.
let you soar,
let you fly high.
short post?
haha,
i just let my feelings flow.
hands typing,
wad the heart has to say.
(:
emo post,
pardon me.
(:
lucks for people taking papers on monday.
your final run.
go for it.
(:
BANGBANG
Friday, November 03, 2006
hey! (:
wah.
few days to the battle.
> lets jia you!
hahahahah. : DD
people ah,
remember to add ur petrol to max!
: D
dont let the petrol leak! ((:
and and.
GOOD LUCK!
anyone taking the O's! : D
mug hard!
that shall be the last.
hahahahahah!
love you people! ((:
<333
okay.
i gotta go alr.
heheheh.
be happy people!
* BEAMS *
BANGBANG
